Mixed emotion

so i'm writing to say that i have had a lot of conflicting thoughts lately. not nessarly like i think about one thing and then think something different but i'm thinking things that aren't normally in my personality. i see myself reelvaluating they way i think about things and wanting to do new and scary things. i think that i'm coming out of my shell a little, if you can imagine i have a shell, and i just feel like my life is on the verge of a change, and i'm excited about that. i don't know this my all be bull shit but i've really been thinking a lot about my life lately and have decided there is no day like the present, and no one will make your dreams come true but you. i'm gonna try to make a vow to be more positive and not let everything bother me so much that is my goal.....we will see how long that last.....in other news i'm going to see NKOTB in about 2 weeks. i used to love them. i was like the biggest fan ever. i'm so excited

TEST

so today we have testing at our school. which means i have to sit in the gym for 2 hours while we listen to not one but 2 motivational speakers. Ugh. but i guess ti could be worse. yesterday i cut my grass, i know right, and then took a nap. i needed to clean my hose last night but did not wake up until 6 this morning, so i just threw everything in the spare bedroom. (i have a guy coming today to hook up the cable) i just didn't want him to think i was nasty you know. so now just the spare room is nasty. i can't wait for the weekend. i have 2 more days b4 i'm up in atl at 6flags. however if you go to sfog.net there are forums and they are making some really nasty comments about our show. i say if you don't have anything better to do with your life than to get on line and bitch about a show that people are busting their ass for then your life sucks and you are a looser. there i said it .

miss you guys

S0 Sad times. i miss my summer cast. they were all super fun and i just really miss them. here we are pictured (sam and tedra and brad not pictured) but it just seemed like we were a family we just all seemed to click and i miss them all. i love my new cast but i really miss these peoples. I love you guys!