Mixed emotion

so i'm writing to say that i have had a lot of conflicting thoughts lately. not nessarly like i think about one thing and then think something different but i'm thinking things that aren't normally in my personality. i see myself reelvaluating they way i think about things and wanting to do new and scary things. i think that i'm coming out of my shell a little, if you can imagine i have a shell, and i just feel like my life is on the verge of a change, and i'm excited about that. i don't know this my all be bull shit but i've really been thinking a lot about my life lately and have decided there is no day like the present, and no one will make your dreams come true but you. i'm gonna try to make a vow to be more positive and not let everything bother me so much that is my goal.....we will see how long that last.....in other news i'm going to see NKOTB in about 2 weeks. i used to love them. i was like the biggest fan ever. i'm so excited